~Hurt~

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Today, I feel so sad and hurt toO.. dis things happen again, again and again!!~... why it's always happen to me??.. it's really hurt, ok??.. for the second times, I really feel like I'm going losing my bestfriend.. yes!!..For the second times... Is it just my feeling or it's really happen in reality?.. only god knows.. and the question is what actually happen to my bff??.. I'm not sure if I've make mistake or do something that make him hurt.. as I knoe, I didn't.. but, if I did, why don't they tell me rather than do like dis to me??.. huhuhu..

If I'm not mistaken, I knoe him during part 1, diploma in tourism management, UiTM Penang.. All my coursemate said that he's weird and no ones like to be his friend because of his attitude.. especially for boys.. then, I'll try to be his friend until we become a bestfriend.. yes!!.. AS A BESTFRIEND.. Actually, I'm really glad having him as my bestfriends because he's very supportive, caring & understanding.. plus he like to give an idea, opinion and advise.. and he's a good listener too...but now, I realize dat he change a litte bit.. he become someone else...different from the first time i knoe him....but why??.. he seem like he hate me as his bff.. Is it because of time make him changed or because of he has a new gf??.. I don't think so.. Before this, he has a girlfriend but dats not be da problems... weird huh??..

and right now, he moving to shah alam.. suppose I'm happy but I'm not because he do not want to see and meet me.. but why my dear bff??.. before this, he live in Damansara.. he always wanna meet me but I'm too busy wif my study.. Now, he live in shah alam and same goes wif me and I really hope dat can meet him..  hurm.....

4 days ago, his burfday.. I wish his burfday in facebook and also sending him a msg to both of his number but no response.. it's no way dat he don't has a credit... I just wanna invite him to hang out together wif me and Nurzie to celebrate his burfday.. but.. huhuhu.. sad... ;(

he'll fly far far away soon... far from malaysia.. hurm.. at least before he fly, please meet me.. he already promise to meet me but he can't make it, I think.. Actually, maybe he doesn't want to.. huhuhuhu..I'm not a good friend for him anymore.. MAYBE.. he said he wanna go to Abu Dhabi & Dubai end of this year or next month next year for some reasons.. What's the reasons??.. can't tell in public..hehehe..It become more hurt when he said dat during his return, he'll become another person.. what's the meaning, huh??.. already ask him about that but he can't explain.. Now, aku redha je.. just hope one day u'll realize dat I'm always be ur bff.. nothing's change!!~ 

Christina Aguilera - Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face

You told me how proud you were, but I walked away

If only I knew what I know today

Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I wanna call you

But I know you won't be there

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broken inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss

And it's so hard to say goodbye

When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance

To look into your eyes

And see you looking back

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day

I would tell you how much that I've missed you

Since you've been away

Ooh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line

To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

My bff, Mohd Asyraf Auzaie Jasman..

No Doubt - Don't Speak Lyrics

You and me

We used to be together

Every day together always

I really feel

Like I'm losing my best friend

I can't believe

This could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go

And if it's real

Well I don't want to know

Don't speak

I know just what you're saying

So please stop explaining

Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Don't speak

I know what you're thinking

I don't need your reasons

Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories

They can be inviting

But some are altogether

Mighty frightning

As we die, both you and I

With my head in my hands

I sit and cry

It's all ending

I gotta stop pretending who we are

You and me

I can see us dying...are we?

xoxo