What the hell??

Assalamualaikum wbt & hye bloggers!!~..

I hate this feeling.. i'm stress and i think this week was terrible week for me plus there's so many thing happens.. someone sending sms that he wanna kill me even i don't know him.. and someone make a story about me to his friend and ask me to leave him alone even i'm not border about him anymore.. Thanks to both of them.. 

So, i found this poem by Gary R. Hess that really suit to me. LOL..

I don't know what to feel

Heart is dead

Mind confused

Don't know what to do

Feel sad for many reasons

Money, lust, hatred

Can't handle it all

Eyes crying

Body dying

No sound of hope

Just quiet humming

And distant echoes mourning

p/s : but i'm still lucky to get an interview for next monday.. =)

hope i'll get this job..

xoxo,

:: Effa CuRio ::

The Girl I Used To Be!!~

Assalamualaikum wbt & hye bloggers!!~

I just realize there's a lot of mistakes i've done in my life and i know i can't take back.. this poem inspiring me a lot.. Thanks to the writer..

I tell myself that everything's going to be ok,

that there is no reason for all this pain.

The time it took to change, 

the time it took to see all those mistakes.

The life I had, I can't have back.

The choices I made affected me in all those ways.

The mistakes I made have not been forgotten.

The tears I shed, the sounds I made,

the feelings that left me feeling in a different way.

Yet I can't see why these tears feel so unreal.

I'm not the same, my words are unsaid.

What I hide is buried deep inside.

To know, to love, to breathe.

It hurts to know that I'll never be the girl I used to be

The one that would always laugh,

the one that you knew would always be strong.

The feeling is real, the truth is sealed.

I cry in the dark because I know I cut too deep.

The blood is like the rain,

in every way it drifts away.

The scars are real but the wounds in the heart 

are another mark.

If you only knew what I've been through,

or maybe you could take a walk in my shoes.

I'm not fake, I'm not a doll,

I just don't think I'm the same in any way,

So where did my soul go?

Why did I ever let it runaway?

What happened to that girl?

The one that could make you laugh,

the one that would always take you out?

What happened to that girl,

cuz I'm lost without her?

I'm no longer me, the mistakes changed me,

but did they changed her?

If only I would know.

credit to Laura.. =)

xoxo,

:: Effa CuRio ::

VD fans!!~

Assalamualaikum & Hye bloggers!!~..

Nothing much to write down.. Just wanna say that i'm a big fans of VD.. do you know what VD stand for??.. of course Vampire Diaries..  yeah.. i'm in love with Damon Salvatore  (Ian Somerhalder).. he's so handsome.. So, let's check out some pictures!!~..

oh yeah.. dat's all.. I'm a big fans of IAN SOMERHALDER & THE VAMPIRE DIARIES!!~ <3

=))

xoxo,

:: Effa CuRio ::

25 Random Things!!~

Assalamualaikum wbt & hye bloggers!!~..

You wanna know about me??.. here are 25 random things about me..

1. Name in IC : Effa Binti Mustafa Bakri.. can called me effa.. or Effa CuRio.. my bff called me fa or fafa.. my niece called me auntie fafa.. =)

2. was born on 28th January 198* in Hospital Besar Ipoh, Perak but now known as Hospital Permaisuri Bainun.. i'm anak jati Perak but now already move on and stayed in shah alam.. 

3. fresh graduates from UiTM in Bsc (Hons) Tourism Management and minor in Hotel Management.. now, i'm jobless.. hehehe..

4. adores Avril Lavigne and Haylie Williams so much.. they're cute and rocks my world.. =)

5. i had a dream to be novelist like Ahadiat Akashah because i adores him and his novels.. please pray for me and hope someday i'll be like him.. (angan-angan tinggi)

6. i'm petite.. so many people don't believe that i'm 20+ years old.. they thought me still studying in secondary school.. ahahahaha.. 

7. i love music so much.. i can't live without music because music is my life..  

my late father was musician and i hope i can be like him.. i wanna be a drummer.. hehehe..

8. i'm  a simple person and sumtimes quite sensitive and emo too.. that's y people says i'm emo girl and my blogger also more to emo.. blogger name also http;//emogurls-emolovers.blogspot.com.. winkwink..

9. this petite girl like to do an adventurous activities such as abseiling, flying fox, wall climbing, jungle trekking, water rafting and hope one day can do bungee jumping.. oh yeah!!~

10. like to watch Vampire diaries because of ian somerhalder (Damon Solvatore).. he's handsome.. hehehe.. actually the story so awesome.. really like it.. if i've enough money, i'll buy the books.. 

11. as an ex-student of tourism management, definitely i like to travel and a lot of places that i wish to visit.. first, i would like to visit aussie.. oh yeah.. then i wanna travel to Korea, Krabi and much more.. travel needs a lot of money right??.. so, i'll find a job as soon as possible so that i can save my money.. =)

12. i really love my two pinky gadgets which are my handphone sony ericson w750 and my lappy sony vaio even though i hate pinks.. hehehe..


13. fyi, i'm not interested in cooking matter and not good in cooking LOL..  ahahahaha.. but i'm interested in bake.. needs to learn how to bake cheese cake..


14. addicted to coke and fast food especially mcd.. (mcchicken, ayam goreng, mcflurry oreo).. love chocolate too.. for cake, i like marble cheese cake from secret recipe.. yummy yummy.. and the best part is, i like soya bean so much and a long time ago, my sis said to me if there are a boy or man doesn't like soya bean, he can't be my boyfie.. ahahaha.. what a fish.. i don't care about it.. 


15. have a happy family... oh yeah??.. ahahaha.. i've 4 siblings and all girls.. i'm the youngest.. have two brother in law, 1 niece and 1 nephew.. parents??.. my dad already passed away two years ago because of stroke.. ;(


16. did u know where i get the name of Effa CuRio??.. Actualy once i like emily the strange so much.. So, i wanna put my name as Effa the strange but like a copycat right??.. So, my sis give this name.. CuRio in german means strange.. hehehe.. 


17. i doesn't like flowers.. but if someone asking me which flowers did i prefer most, i rather choose roses.. black roses.. may i have a bouquet of it??.. ;p


18. in love with blogging and twitter.. currently deactive facebook for undefined period of time because of technical problems.. hehehe.. addicted for blogging because it is a platform for me to show my writing skill to be a novelist.. pheeewiittt.. (sengal je ayat)


19. i hate people who materialistic and hypocrites.. this person make me sick.. hehehe.. and also hate people who such a big liar..


20. once upon a time, someone said i'm a lesbian??.. oh my gucci.. if i'm not mistaken, this situation happen when i'm studying in Penang.. that girl says like that because she jealous with me and my room-mate so mesra and closed.. ahahahaha.. i'm not lesbian.. we just like bff.. ngeee!!~


21. hate heels.. even i'm petite i hate to wear heels.. i'm prefer wedges and sneakers than heels because if i wear heels, i can't walk LOL.. i'm gonna be like 'patung'.. ahahahaha!!~


22. Effa CuRio loves reading.. my mom said that i can't go to the bookstore.. if not, it took one hour in there.. hehehe.. sorry mom.. i like bookstore.. i like to read novels and comics... in my room, there's around 30 comics.. ;)


23. i'm a friendly person but i'm quite sensitive.. if someone hurts me , i'll hurts them too.. so please leave me alone or don't u dare to hurt me especially my feelings.. i hate heart broken.. if' i'm heart breaker, i'll do something stupid.. hehehehe.. just kidding.. i'll be friendly to all who wanna be my friend.. (salam kenal)


24. i love watching movie.. thriller or ghost or vampire movie.. =)


25. lastly, i love my mother so much.. she's my idol.. only she i had.. i mean as parents.. my dad already passed away.. Mama, I luv u so much and thanks for grow me up without husband.. thanks for sent me to school until i get my degree.. thanks for being  a wonderful and great mother to me and my sisters.. you awesome!!.. thanks for everything mama.. sorry if i'm not being a wonderful daughter like my sisters for you.. and Happy Birthday (23/02/2011)!!~ =))

that's all 25 random things about me.. =)

xoxo,

:: Effa CuRio::

Faceblog!!~

Assalamualaikum & Hye Bloggers!!~..

What is FACEBLOG??.. nama pun dh mcm FACEBOOK kan.. mesti la ade persamaan sikit.. macam FACEBOOK, FACEBLOG nie merupakan satu socialnetwork yg baru diwujudka utk menbina satu komuniti baru khasnya blogger yang berada di Malaysia.. Ianya juga utk mengeratkan lagi hubungan sesama blogger di Malaysia ni.. So, let's join the FACEBLOG.. 

Dulu duniaku berwarna biru, kini berwarna pink.. hehehe... =)

xoxo,

:: Effa CuRio ::

My 14 Minutes Survey!!~

Assalamualaikum & Hye Bloggers!!~..

My Cousin tag survey nie kat saya.. So, let's check out the survey.. =))

Instruction: Once you are tagged, answer all the question honestly.

No lying or cheating ok?

Starting time : 11.43pm

Name : Effa Mustafa Bakri

Brother(s) : none

Eye Colour : Black.. 

Shoe size : secret lol.. 

Hair : long and black hair

Piercing : yup

Height : 1** cm

What are you wearing right now : t-shirt

Where do you live : Shah Alam

Favourite Number : 28

Favourite Drink : Soya, Teh ais and coke

Favourite Month : of course January

Favourite Breakfast : Nasi lemak

HAVE YOU EVER

Broken a bone : nope

Been in a police car : nope

Fallen for a friend : maybe.. ahaha

Fallen for a guy/girl in a short time : definitely nope..

Smam in the ocean : i can't swim.. hehehe

Fallen asleep in school : nope

Broken someone's heart : yes.. 

Cried when someone died : yes

Sat by the phone all the night waiting for someone call : nope

Saved E-mails : yes

Been cheated : yes

WHAT

Your room look a like : nice.. ahahaha.. 

What is right beside you : my sister

What is the last thing you ate : chocolate

Who did you last tell : my sis

Who was the last person you danced with : my niece

Who last made you smile : my niece

FINAL QUESTION

What are you listening to right now : Katy Perry - ET

What did you do today : babysitter

Are you the oldest : nope..

Indoors or outdoors : outdoors

TODAY DID YOU

Talk to someone you like : nope

Kiss someone : yes.. my niece & nephew

Sing : yes.. hehehe

Talk to an Ex : nope 

Miss Someone? : yes

Eat : yes.. 

LAST PERSON YOU TALKED.. WHO

You talked on the phone to : my sis

Made you cry : can't remember

You went to the mall with : my sis

cheered you up : my niece

HAVE YOU

Been to Mexico : no

Been to USA : yes.. in my dream babeh.. ahaha

RANDOM

Have a crush on someone : yes

What books are you reading now : not reading..

Best feeling in the world : happy

Future kids name : boy - Irfan

girl - dania but that's my niece's name.. so, Batrisya maybe.. =)

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal : teddy bear..

What's under your bed : my printer

Favourite sports : badminton

Favourite place : Aussie

Who do you really hate : someone.. 

Do you have a job : still seeking

What time is it now : 11.54 pm

With however long it took you to complete this,

post as " My 14 Minutes Survey " and tag 15 peoples

So, i would like to tag :

Ayu Aziz

Khalid Arumi

Fahan

iQa

Ma

She

Nurul

Amy

Ash

Keem

Lulu

Umai

You

You

and You

xoxo,

:: Effa CuRio :: 

Award from Cipa!!~

Assalamualaikum & hye bloggers..

lama juga xbuka blog nie and suddenly... yeay.. dapat award from cipa.. thanks ya cipa.. suka sgt-sgt.. =))

dh dpt award nie kena la jawab 3 soklan dari pemberi award...

soklan-soklannya:-

1. best x blog ni??

- mesti la best.. blog cipa nie cute sangat.. geram je.. =)

2. blog nie ringan atau berat??.. susa xnk msok cni?

- blog nie ringan je... senang sangat nk masuk.. xde plak nak tunggu lama loading.. hehehe

3. komen ttg cipa??..

- alamak.. no komen boleh x??.. hehehe.. sengal je.. cipa nie seorang yg peramah and baik hati.. tapi sy mmg suka blog cipa nie.. cute je..

Lastly, thanks ya cipa for the award.. *winkwink*.. thanks a lot.. really appreciate dat.. ;)

xoxo,

:: Effa CuRio ::

Love this song.. =))

Just love this song.. =)

Thanks to my bff for this song..

ngeee..

xoxo,

:: Effa CuRio ::

I HATE YOU!!~

I hate that I like you

I hate that I fell for you

I hate that you don't care

I hate that you happy

I hate that I can't forgive

I hate that I trusted you

I hate the way you lie

I hate your jokes

I hate your smiles

I hate your friends

I hate everything you said

I hate everything about you

I HATE YOU!!~

xoxo,

:: Effa CuRio ::

Avril Lavigne vs Hayley Williams!!~

Assalamualaikum wbt & hye bloggers!!~

What the hell??.. okay.. everyone knows that 'what the hell' is the song title by avril lavigne right??.. For your information, the owner of this blog ; Effa CuRio adores Avril Lavigne so much since she's in secondary school.. =)) .. hehehe.. Let's check out the detail...

********************************

 Name: Avril Romana Lavigne.. 
aka
Avril Lavigne..
she was born in Belleville, Ontario, Canada on 27th September 1984..

She's so beautiful + cute.. and she has a good voice.. 

hehehe..

The songs that i love most are my happy ending, alice, i'm with you, skater boy, too much to ask, complicated, losing grip, when you're gone and all her songs.. hehehe..

here is the video of what the hell...

nice video LOL..

So, what about Hayley Williams??.. 
I hate her??.. of course not.. I like her too.. =))

*******************************

Name: Hayley Nichole Williams..
aka
Hayley Williams
she was born in Meridian, Mississippi, US on 27th December 1988..

she's the vocalist of Paramore.. 

adores Hayley williams too because she's rock..

ahahhaha.. =))

the songs that i love most by hayley williams or paramore are decode, brick by boring brick, pressure, the only exception, airplanes and many more.. winkwink

here is the video - the only exception..

Last but not least, i adores both of this singer so much..
Avril Lavigne and Hayley Williams..
luv them.. they're rock!!~..


p/s: Salam Maulidur Rasul semua.. =))


xoxo,
:: Effa CuRio ::

;))

Assalamualaikum wbt & hye bloggers!!~..

Lama dah xupdate blog.. almaklum la busy sgt!!~.. hurm.. this is the first entry dlm bulan february.. huhuhu.. xtau nk cite ape pun but ade satu lagu nie buat aku tertarik dengan muzik dan liriknya.. jom layan!!~.. ;))

nie pulak liriknya:

Pejamkan matamu untukku

Dengarlah dunia berkata-kata

Usah kau ragu di sini tempatmu

Walau berubah di mata kita tetap indah

Selagi kau masih percaya

Ketawa kecewa terpisah

Jalan yang lurus kian berhalang

Adakah semua ini yang ku inginkan

Ataupun hanya mengejar dunia semata-mata

Ku harap kau masih percaya

Adakah semua ini yang ku inginkan

Ataupun hanya mengejar dunia semata-mata

Ku harap kau masih percaya

Buka matamu

Biar aku memelukmu

Kita bersama masih muda masih mentah

Ku harap kau masih percaya

Selama ini selama ini

Selama ini selama ini

Selama ini selama ini

Selama ini...

 xoxo, 

:: Effa CuRio ::